sit and close my eyes and try once more
to find a key that opens heaven's door
my prayers lift all my burdens to the sky
and open up my heart's long distance cry
been here so many times and felt betrayed
when i saw nothing but the steps i'd laid
to take me to the place where i could stand
and ask for help from someone's gracious hand
and i would listen deeply through my fear
your voice too still to know that you were here
the angels cheer and all the demons mock
the key too often broken in the lock
seek to find and asking to receive
i summon up the strength just to believe
that somehow from the place i often hide
you're waiting somewhere on the other side
i stepped down through the mem'ries and it's clear
that when i thought you absent you were here
and even when the road i could not see
still you were marking steps in front of me
sit with opened eyes and turn from sleep
to ponder all the silence dark and deep
in stillness in these moments that i pray
your spirit giving words i dare not say